The Husband I'll never have.

Love Is a tender thing 

but... 

A Crush is a whole other matter. 

I see him and Say Hi. 
His blue eyes twinkle when they look into mine.
He knows my name and thats all it takes to make my day. 
He play's guitar and leads worship band.
Has a good heart that wants to serve God passionately in the end. 
When confronted with a "WHY didn't you go?" situation, 
both of us give answers of Jonah's prison...(the fish)
A natural born leader EVERYONE knows and loves him.
Confidence is his nature.
Cool is his style.
He can make you think, and defiantly make you smile.
     But...
He's a senior
I'm a junior
He has a prom date and I'm going stag
So that means....
He's the husband I'll never have. 

A Date for Valentines

    Everyone has it confused...
The real meaning behind Valentines Day (Now known as Single's Awareness Day) is to show love to people.

   Yes, typically the person you love is a boyfriend Or girlfriend- but we've made it into only Being about a "DATING RELATIONSHIPS" and now everyone hates it.



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Today I had celebrated Valentines day with a Person I love.  Someone who is dear to my heart and I wouldn't replace if I had the choice.... My Best Friend- My little Princess- My sister
                               ELLE.

  

PDA--- the Suckface kind!

PDA: I've done it- I held hands with my ex-boyfriend Freshman year as we walked down the hall, kissed a guy on the cheek at school, but NEVER EVER EVER in my life will I do what I saw happen today!

    

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    Normally I'm cool with PDA, but when It looks like you gonna suck the persons face off and I have to be around it because your sitting Right in front of me Its just rude. In my state of irritation I found a empty water bottle lid and chucked it at the couple to get their attention- It worked for a minute but not for long because they looked for the attacker and then went back at it..... This brought up a question In my  mind and the more I thought about it, the more the whole situation became dearly heartbreaking. 

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    To me PDA is kind of stupid- in a way its sort of bragging and thats one reason I don't really enjoy making a big scene of it. First off because for me as a Christian I'm instructed to not boast, but to be humble. I can think Of times were I would be dating someone and think I was so cool because He loved me and I loved him, and everyone who adored him, HAD to love me to because I was Linked to him. (Link- Pun hahaha.... Inside joke sorry) Looking back it was wrong, but I couldn't see that then.  

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    Not only that but affection is supposed to be a private thing. Every girl wants that romantic guy who takes interest in her personally and just spends time with her in general- So why do we  settle for school? a place you go everyday? a place were all you do is complain? a place were all you get is facts, lists, and Exuberant amounts of homework? Its kind of insulting if you really think about it. I mean for pity sakes the guy says he's in love with you, but the only time he can ever spend with you is at school- For what a make out session during lunch, or a 2min cuddle in between classes- i wouldn't settle for that and neither should any other Girl!

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    The saddest part about what PDA has become is that It shows how much Girls don't respect themselves anymore! As I sat watching this couple I noticed that sometimes the girl would pull back a little and want to just chill, but the boy would keep messing with her (biting her ear, or grabbing her waist) that was part of the starting/stopping cycle. It came down to the fact that she would eventually want to make him happy and give in.  I'm not saying its ALWAYS the guys fault, My point is that PDA seems to be done to please the other person instead of doing what makes you feel good- Kind of like PROVIG your love! 

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    This is just my View on this topic- it'll probably change overtime as my experiences expand, and as I grow older but For now the standards for any guy that comes knock'n  are high :) 

Thinking back on Birthday wishes...& Looking forward to new Ones!

    "Happy birthday, Happy birthday to you   

   Happy birthday to Jacqueline,   

  Happy Birthday to you...  

    

    I Remember when I was seven. Birthdays seemed like a Princess day. Were I got to wear a fancy dress, put on a tiara, have a cake that I picked out, and Got presents from my mommy and daddy... 

      

   Then I hit ... Middle school and suddenly it seemed much- MUCH bigger. It consisted of doing the "Cool" things. Like going to PG-13 movies, Bowling at the Alley, and  inviting a boy to play spin the bottle (No worries I never did that)-- Imagine the movie 13 going on 30 and you'll know what I'm talking about.

  

    Now, I'm at the age were everything counts. Grades, Friends, any driving tickets... and the day comes. February 7th 2011 My 17th birthday. 

Now instead of just being a "special" day Its an important Time marker- A warning saying how much Or WHAT will happen Between now and next year. 

    I Celebrated tonight. Had all my closest girlfriends Over for a live karaoke, mario kart,  and a Dance off evening. 

   Its amazing, or maybe a better word  to say would be INCREDIBLE... the Fact that I wasn't supposed to to be dancing with my hands in the air tonight.  I Wasn't supposed to Have friends that would belt out the words to "a Pocket full of sunshine" for me. I wasn't supposed to Be touched when I received a card from a girl I've been praying for for 2 years! I wasn't supposed to be Alive tonight. 

But I am... thats how I know GoD has a plan.

        As I write a new chapter of my life I'm not guaranteed roses and chocolate, Laughter and joy 100% everyday. Thats not how life woks- I'm probably gonna get a speeding ticket, forget to do my homework, lose some friends, and mess up a couple BIJILLON times; but that doesn't change the fact that God has a plan! I'm at that stage in life were- lets be honest I do some DUMB stuff....  because I'm stuck between growing up and being a kid. So this year instead of asking for a car, or a cell phone or wishing for a boyfriend I'm Focusing on what really matters.

       I'm putting away the desire to be the perfect girl, and living life to the EXTREME --- a way that catches people's Attention and gives the glory to God 100% of the time.  

L0V3 JAc <3

 

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